Change

~Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!
⁹ Oh, fear the Lord, you His saints! There is no want to those who fear Him.
¹⁰ The young lions lack and suffer hunger; But those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing. Psalms 34:8-10~

As of late our family has been experiencing quite a few changes.  And honestly I think its during those times that my faith is tried the most!  But the example that I want to set for my children is one that shows my dependance on God.  Its so easy to try to put up a front for them or hide the emotions that some time come with change, whether good or bad.  

I've decided lately that its ok to tell my children when I'm having a hard day or when things just are not going according to plan.  Allowing them to see my weaknesses is not a bad thing. In fact, they already see them!  (This does not mean that I tell them all the details of every situation.) Its better for me to address those weaknesses rather than ignore them.  Using those 'rough times' to teach them to turn to Jesus, really isn't a bad thing. I don't want them to see a fake smile pasted on my face in the midst of a mess or hard time.  I would rather them see my frustration or disappointment and be taught what to do with it.  I don't want them to learn to ignore, but rather to run to Jesus. Once we invite Jesus into the situation He allows us to have a smile on in the midst of a mess. 

Our kids pick up on more than we know, so we mights as well lead them to Christ in it all.  God never asked me to be the perfect parent, He just asked me to seek Him and keep Him first.  
Sometimes, in the midst of life we can forget that.  I know for me there are times that I place more effort on 'trying to be perfect' then on putting effort into my relationship with the One who can perfect all things that concern me.  

So, tonight I'm allowing myself to admit that I'm working through some emotions.  Its ok, they're not ruling my life, but I am allowing myself to acknowledge them and feel them.  My God can handle me, even a little emotional =)  I need to trust Him in all things not just when I feel like I'm at my best.